DJ Earworm - United state of pop 2009

The mcdonald analogy

I know a girl who broke up with a guy and she told him she wanted to “still be friends.” He said, “No thanks.” She wondered why he couldn’t fall back to being just friends after they had a romantic relationship. I came up with the “McDonalds Analogy” to try and explain it in a simple way that would help all women understand this tough question.
Imagine if you went to McDonalds a lot and ordered a Big Mac Combo meal. A Big Mac, Large Fries and a Coke. You really like this meal. One day, you pull up to the drivethrough and order the Big Mac Combo meal and the girl tells you, “I’m sorry – you can have the Big Mac and the Coke, but you can’t get fries with that anymore.” You think about this for a moment, and sure – the Big Mac is the centerpiece of the meal, but McDonalds has some really good fries and you like their fries with your meal. So you say, “I’ve been able to get fries with that before, why can’t I have fries with my Big Mac combo anymore?” The girls says, “Well, I just think it is better if you only have the Big Mac and the Coke from here on out.”
At this point, a lot of guys are going to go to Wendy’s or BK and see if they can get fries with their combo at that drivethrough window. But there are some guys who REALLY like McDonalds Big Macs and they might think, “If I keep coming here and ordering the Big Mac and Coke, maybe she’ll change her mind and give me some fries with that later.” So they will keep on getting the combo without the fries until the deal breaker happens: One day that guy is going to order the Big Mac and Coke and then he’s going to pull up a little bit to pay, and someone else is going to pull up to the drivethrough speaker and order the “Big Mac Combo” and he is going to hear the girl say, “Would you like fries with that?”
That’s why guys don’t like to be friends with a girl who breaks up with them.

Cock Shot!

God damnit.

I don't understand exes sometimes. I know why they're called exes for a reason, things don't work out and  then boom you guys break up right? Take some part apart from each other and let things cool down then go out and find another person; or just stay single for awhile and just enjoy the freedom.

Any ways, my last ex broke up with me and we got back together a few times and it never worked out. So the last try I knew it wasn't going to work out and I know the feelings for him weren't really there any more. We just kept talking as friends. Eventually, he began sounding very upset and whining, well not exactly whining, just being a downer and saying how he hates being a lone and finding some one is hard. I just gave in and suggested a site for him to meet some new people, just because the one where we met on wasn't all that great. I guess that site I suggested to him made him really happy. Happy enough to make him message and call me telling me that we were matched up again. I kind of found that funny how an online dating site matched us up together again, after many fail attempts trying to make this simple relationship work.

Any who, I started seeing different people more. Some didn't work out some did. I'm currently happily seeing some one. I wasn't sure if i should continue casual dating with so many different guys because I just wanted to be considerate to certain people's feelings. I didn't want to make myself sound easy or make them think that they're a possible rebound. But after one certain phone call from a certain person, rubbing it in my face that he's attaching himself to another girl, THEN had the guts to suggest that I may want "something." I knew what that something was, and I wasn't interested in it. It's okay when two friends whom are not seeing any one to do it, I guess. But it's definitely not okay when your both seeing some one.  I just told him and i guess he was okay with it.

Now,  I thought since he attached himself to another girl, I thought it was a bit odd that he was calling me. I was out with my boyfriend, and yeah i thought it was really weird. I had a feeling as to why he called. But honestly, I know i was your first. You have another girl that your getting attached to, if you want something like sexual or cuddling, please go see her. Don't come to me, that's not what I'm for. If i wanted to be pleasured I'll ask my boyfriend or just cuddle with my boyfriend.

Another rant- simple and straight to the point. we broke up almost 6 months ago. Stop calling me and asking if i wanna go out for coffee and catch up.

No i do not. Stop calling and trying to ask.

FWD:Faith

I came across this this morning, through stumble of course. I didn't want to copy and paste the whole post, instead I'll just link it.

it's so sweet and cute at the same time. I kind of gave in since I love dogs.

Story of Faith

Sex in the dark

There was this couple that had been married for 20 years. Every time they made love the husband always insisted on shutting off the lights.

Well, after 20 years the wife felt this was ridiculous. She figured she would break him out of this crazy habit. So one night, while they were in the middle of a wild, screaming, romantic session, she turned on the lights.

She looked down ... and saw her husband was holding a battery operated pleasure device... a vibrator ... soft, wonderful and larger than a real one.

She goes completely ballistic. "You impotent bastard," she screamed at him, "how could you be lying to me all of these years? You better explain yourself!"

The husband looks her straight in the eyes and says calmly: "I'll explain the toy... if you explain the kids."

it's that time again!

Yes! It's that horrid time again, that most post secondary students call FINALS! *cue Dramatic Music*
I always dread them, but then again i don't think it's so bad this year... i only have 1. I've done 2 in class ones... I don't think I've done very well this semester. I don't know if its because I'm not trying hard enough or I'm worried about something else....OR I have too many people *ahem* distracting me because they have nothing better to do then "flirt" or try and get my attention.

I should be cramming for my econ final, but I don't have the attention span to sit here and read the text book then have a quick glance over to the class notes...and lastly make an attempt to answer the study guide thingy my prof had provided us... I need to re-draw some of the graphs. They're so messy and I can't really tell what's what and which one is EQo*, and EQ^1. I do label them but messy graphs makes everything hard to read.

now i shall get back t ostudying and stop looking at pretty purses.

*I swear there should be an option for subscript.

Little black dress shopping~

It's that damn time again, time to find a new dress for the little Christmas outing we gotta go to. I just started the hunt for it a few days ago because I realized that I won't be able to get the one I want to wear altered in time. Any ways, I gotta run to work and I will update this section when i get off work and find some more dresses that I may like.

That's one option, it comes in Green and Pink as well; however I plan on wearing red heels so I don't wanna look like a dipstick.

v 39.50 from F21. 

again from f21 $29.90

ONE last one:

click here stupid site won't let me copy the pic so thats what i was left with. 

modula shelving unit

damn this looks so damn cool I want one in my future, apartment/ room I can probably stack all the little books I have in my room or little dvds/ misc. items.

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Family dinners...

family dinners are very interesting to be at, well espeically if your with your partner/significant other's family. You learn so much from being there...in the summer i was always at my ex's family dinner. It's really completely different from mine. His family dinners usually were at their houses with home cooked meals. It was like a feast - mostly with western food and some traditional chinese food.

Now his family dinner had all the cousins together having dinner and chatting about their trips or things that were going on in their lives. The adults would have their deserts and coffee and chat about current events or gossip over little things. They were really close to each other and very social with one another despite the age difference.

Now my family, we would normally go out for dinner and my we'd be seperated by two tables. I always end up at the table with the cousins I grew up with, and my parents with my the other older people in the family. If there was a third table, then that would be the remainders of the family or friends that we've invited. Now my family is very segerated from each other. If i sat with my parents for one night I would not have a single clue whats going on and who they're talking about. It's how its always been with my family, the adults would gossip or discuss things that were going on with other family members whom I've never met- or expect to meet. Now at the table I sit with it usually consists of my cousins, my aunt and uncle and my brothers. My cousins usually sit together with the youngest in the middle and they have conversations among themselves. Same goes for my brother, I'm usually sitting there alone with my cellphone going on facebook or texting people to keep me entertaining until the first dish is served.

Occassionally I'd play with my 2nd cousin and take pictures with him. He's a total camera whore - I probably have a whole album dedicated to him on facebook. I guess I'm his favourite cousin? I always played with him when he lived in my basement suite. His dad used to walk him up the stairs to come up to see me, then when he learned to crawl he crawled up the stairs so flipping fast. It was adorable, we would know when he was coming. He would always takes a peek around the turn of the stairs before coming. If he doesn't see us he takes his time, but if he knows we're there he'll power crawl up the stairs. Now his little game of finding me is even cuter. When i would be doing homework and my door would be closed, he opens my door a little and takes a peek. He would giggle at me if i don't notice me right way. When I go he laughs and runs into the door shouting "GUUUU!"

now the best part about tonight

me: " lang gu hai been ah?" (where's your pretty aunt?)
eric: *points at me*

Christopher - Colours

It's all different now, no lovers in this house
I'm holding on, but I guess not tight enough (no,no)
Not alone, sometimes I feel like I am
Cause when I look in your eyes,
You just seem so far away

[Hook]
Why are colors begin to fade away?
Once so bright but now they've lost a shade oh
Like who knows, what could make them change?
So we gotta find a way to make the colors stay

[Chorus:]
It's so complicated,
Too much grey between us
All the colors faded
I wish that we could be black and white
Our love plain and simple love
So now we gotta find a way to make the colors change

Black and white, plain and simple love again
No more holding on to that damning greys phase
And our love winning colors no more blurry lines oh
But we don't talk about, it won't just solve itself

Why are colors begin to fade away?
Once so bright but now they've lost a shade oh
Like who knows, what could make them change?
So now we gotta find a way to make the colors stay

[x2]
It's so complicated,
Too much grey between us
All the colors faded
I wish that we could be black and white
Our love plain and simple love
So now we gotta find a way to make the colors change

[Bridge]
It's so complicated,
So much grey between us
All the colors bleeding
I wish that we could be
It's so complicated,
So much grey between us
All the colors bleeding
Now instead we could be

It's so complicated,
Too much grey between us
All the colors faded
I wish that we could be black and white
Our love plain and simple love
So now we gotta find a way to make the colors change

from write something

When we are fearful, angry, anxious, unhappy, or jealous, are we truly experiencing a state of love? They sure feel different, don\'t they? Love feels warm, open, joyous and filled with a deep sense of appreciation. Pain steps into a love relationship when you switch it from a \"wanted relationship,\" into a \"needed relationship.\" You don\'t NEED any one relationship. Want? Yes. Need? No.
If you go into a relationship not feeling terribly good about yourself, you\'re more likely to become dependent on your partner to help you feel good about yourself. If we felt empty before they appeared in our lives, we fear the emptiness returning if they leave, so their staying with us becomes paramount. That dependency can create all kinds of fear and unhappiness when there\'s a perceived threat to you staying together.

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《想講你知》 MV - G.E.M. 鄧紫棋

 
















即使　誰人要去阻止
行為有幾放肆　言談有幾諷刺
想講你知　無人能亂我所思
從來更加理智　毫無退縮之意　
想講你知

咪高風將心聲也告知　台上唱唱我的故事
偏偏喜歡指點側邊無聊事　流言蜚語更加注意

無謂太多說話
其實你知　OH I DON'T CARE
I DON'T CARE
無論再多蔑視
其實你知　YES I DON'T CARE
I DON'T CARE

即使　誰人要去阻止
行為有幾放肆　言談有幾諷刺
想講你知　無人能亂我所思
從來更加理智　毫無退縮之意　
想講你知

花光心機扭曲我意思　然而當作最新發現
幾多故仔都肯去構思　全部喪智也失正義

無謂太多說話
其實你知　OH I DON'T CARE
I DON'T CARE
無論再多蔑視
其實你知　YES I DON'T CARE
I DON'T CARE

*即使　誰人要去阻止
行為有幾放肆　言談有幾諷刺
想講你知　無人能亂我所思
從來更加理智　毫無退縮之意　
想講你知

即管繼續　無端惹事
(來) 反正亦全沒意思
該有陣時　管你正事
CUZ YOU CANT HURT ME!

Repeat **

即使　誰人要去阻止
沿途太多暗箭　仍然放膽應戰
想講你知　無人能亂我所思
從來更加理智　毫無退縮之意　
想講你知

iThumptack

I found this through Stumbling while in psychology...i should of been taking notes, it's a really neat add on to fire fox.
So pictured below, is the ipod mictrophone iThumbtack, it works for Nanos and itouch 2g. Wouldn't iTack sound better?

If only my iTouch was 2g. 

nomnom nom nom

This entry has totally nothing to do with food, I just didnt have a better title for it. Any ways, if life had a back space button would you abuse it?

I am confident that I will keep pressing that button until the ink fades off. I do admit that there has been things i regret doing and I desperately want to hit the backspace button on. Thinking back at the things I've done over the year - 2009 is probably the year where I want to SLAM on the back space button. Well part of me wants to do it, the other part of me wants to go back in time and slap myself.

But, in reality we all know that's not going to happen. As much as we would love  to travel back into time and figure out some of life's greatest mysteries - for those who always want to discover and learn new things or we want to know how our what ifs'.... would turn out if we did something differently. I have two big what ifs, if i ever get the chance to go back and see the outcome of the what if, I'll probably go back and try out the one back from high school. It doesn't matter to me as much any more but I'm geniunely curious how things would of turned out. The biggest one on my mind is "would it ruin my friendship?"

The Truth About Diet and Exercise

"Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart only good for so many beats, and that it....don't waste on exercise. Everything wear out eventually. Speeding up heart not make you live longer; it like saying you extend life of car by driving faster. Want to live longer? Take nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiency. What does cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So steak is nothing more than efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken.. Beef also good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And pork chop can give you 100% of recommended daily allowance of vegetable product.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that mean they take water out of fruity bit so you get even more of goodness that way. Beer also made of grain. Bottom up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have body and you have fat, your ratio one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No pain...good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU NOT LISTENING! Food are fried these day in vegetable oil. In fact, they permeated by it. How could getting more vegetable be bad for you?!?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise muscle, it get bigger. You should only be doing sit-up if you want bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy?!? HEL-LO-O!! Cocoa bean! Another vegetable! It best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming good for figure, explain whale to me..

Q: Is getting in shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.

And remember:
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - wine in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO-HOO, what a ride!!"

AND.....

For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.

1. The Japanese eat very little fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than us.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than us.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than us.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than us.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beer and eat lots of sausages and fats
and suffer fewer heart attacks than us.

CONCLUSION:

Eat and drink what you like.
Speaking English is apparently what kills you."

Tae Yang Wedding dress

I failed my driver's test

Created by Auto Insurance.org

Yet I have one. 

Lady Gaga - Bad romance Officail MV

it's a good song and everything, and the concept. I mean LOOK at her rock those Alexander McQueen Shoes O_O but i think she needs to keep her sunglasses.

Curly hair curly hair :D

I gotten my hair deep conditioned today, its was time I got one since I always dye my hair and straighten it. I just can't help the fact that I don't look that great with black hair...so now that my hair is nice and soft and curled, I can't help but go "pictures!"

so i took a few, and uhh they turned out alright i suppose. Not as good as the hair

 

too bad the curls are starting to come undone =[ and no i wasnt biting ollie's ear.

Baboos vs a giant dildo..

Created by Oatmeal


yeah...

Up! Up! and away we go!

Yuep! Up! I should be working on my litature review, but here I am multitasking...watching- er listening to Up! in the background. I'm trying ALL my might not to watch it but I end up watching bits and parts of it.

It comes out on Tuesday so you better go and rent it, download it, buy it- I don't care! watch it and tell me what you thought of it.

BITCH SLAP *slap*

Your result for The Personality Defect Test...

Bitch-Slap

You are 29% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 71% Brutal, and 14% Arrogant.

You are the Bitch-Slap, the hallmark response of any abusive husband! You are more intuitive than others, focusing more on feelings than rational explanations, and you are also probably very brutual because you care more about yourself than the well-being of others. As all nagging wives know, brutality combined with emotion often leads to BITCH-SLAPPING, which is why you are called "The Bitch Slap". (That and because I find it amusing to accuse people of pummeling female dogs.) Your humility probably stems from insecurity, if anything, because people fond of slapping the shit out of someone in place of rational discussion are usually not humble in the way Jesus was humble. Possible sources of insecurity? A small penis, a small bank account, a small intelligence...gee, when you say "small" a lot, it stops sounding like a real word! Not only that, but you are also rather introverted, and any tendencies towards brutality you possess may also result from the fact that you bottle up your emotions and don't show them to others until you explode in rage like some sort of shaken soda can. Take it from me, it is much more rewarding to bottle beer over emotions. You can't get wasted on emotions. Aside from all my talk (and it's a lot of talk) you are probably not a VIOLENT person, just someone who is rather selfish and who makes decisions based upon emotional motives. At any rate, being a bitch-slap does not necessarily mean you will abuse your spouse (your body odor is no doubt abuse enough); it only means you are rather intuitive, uncaring toward others, brutal, introverted, and possibly insecure.
And sorry about that body odor remark if you really are insecure. I promise that you smell like roses. Being fertilized by cow shit.

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.

Compatibility:
Your exact opposite is the Braggart.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Schoolyard Bully, the Class Clown, and the Brute.

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If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

Emo Songs

I guess we all have a song we like to listen to when we're feeling down, or just having one of those days. Well  after going through all my songs on my itouch, I realized I have quite a few of them and there's a few I tend to listen to over and over. Most of them are by either Composers, people who write songs and sings demos for other mainstream artists, mainstream and yes, asian singers.

So here they are, in no particular order. I might end up listing them in the order my itunes plays them in. So first on the list is,

Andrea Martin- All the thanks I get 
cos no matter what i do /it's always my fault /and this is all the thanks i get

Epik HIgh - 1 minute 1 second

Jordan Sparks - It Takes More / Andrea Martin - It Takes More
(Same Song, but I prefer Andrea's voice)

No more waiting for you to change / Don't you know that you bringing flowers / Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh) / Don't you know it takes more /You're the only one not worth waiting for


Claude Kelly - It's not fair 
it's not fair (not fair)/ it's so wrong (so wrong) /you're not here /when all i did was give you my all (my all) /while mine breaks (mine breaks) /her heart you hold /i guess my love wasn't enough to keep you home (home)

Daniel D - The Truth
I know so many time and many times before /Love has only let you down /But i swear i’ll give you so much more..

Beyonce ft Lee Carr - If I were a Boy/ If i were a girl


Epik High - 1852 (Paper Cranes)

Jason Chan - 你瞞我瞞


Alex Fong ft Theresea Fu - self deception


Kary Ng - 分手要狠

Chanel car?

I'm all for the concept and what not, but i hope they don't really build it.

Chanel Fanmobile!

Hopes...

Compliment :)

Battlefield cover

since stupid file den's account thing is all effed up

My Winter Fetish.

I'm pretty sure every one has a seasonal fashion fetish. I know some girls love to wear their furry boots or their uggs in the snow. The water stains look disgusting though, but I still give probs to the girls who uh have the guts to go out and wear them even with the water stains.

Any ways back on topic, I was wandering around the mall and almost every store had all their winter accessories out as well as their christmas stuff. The person accompanying me commented how early it was for it to be all out. I agree, Halloween isn't even over yet. Well what caught my eye at every store I commonly shop at were the scarves. I just noticed that, everyone I buy a new one to add to the small collection I have. I actually don't know why scarves appeal to me at all. Sure, its a staple and every person has to have one for the cold winters in Canada, where everything is ice nad igloos.

Although, most scarves in stores are the same generic looking stripes (think Harry Potter), cable knit, the basic wool knitted ones with little fringes at the end, I actually like the ones that Suzy Shier and some other stores have. I can't find can't a picture of it, so I'll try my best to describe it. Basically its a scarf with flowly ends. It's like if a flower, i.e. a rose, was a long string with the petals connected.. I think that's how you would describe it. It looks really nice, the only reason why I like it is because how ever you wear it, it will still look nice. It's so versitile, and fashionable! I shall find a way to get a hold of one and get a picture of it. I suck at being descriptive.

I should learn to knit so I can make my own, and save a small portion of money on it.

epik high 말로맨

This song actually makes me feel better even though i don't know what the hell they're saying.
Don't hate appreciate

ugh... stupid...

I understand your my best friend and everything. I have to be happy for you because this is the first time you had a "real boyfriend" and he treats you like royalty, but I'm not happy for you. Fuck, I think i dislike him. Simply because he wouldn't stop teasing me about the stupid "wee" comment. Damnit it's been FUCKING 4 MONTHS. Drop it already. It's not even funny to me any more, so please stop telling everyone before i decide to punch you in the face and possibly kick you in the nuts. Yes I am aware that I am fucking risking myself and my friendship with your girlfriend. Yes I admit your funny but please draw the fucking line there.

Honestly you don't see me pulling out my phone and playing "Hey Jude" every chance I get, mocking you and your relationship with the friggin pansy.

Last night, I don't know if i had a fun night or not. I couldn't bear standing behind you in line watching you two be all lovely dovey. I'm not being bitter or cold. It's just that I'm still not over my ex. Just watching you two made me think about what if he was there with me that night. I felt like if I was missing out on something the whole damn night watching and being around you two. I know you guys are able to make Jess feel like as if she wasn't a third wheel, and I know i still had her and Vincent's company; but it just frigging killed me inside. It just made me miss being in a relationship with my slinky some more...and getting over that is already hard enough.

ugh. I think I'm not gonna attend any more get togethers with you any more, until i know I'm really over him and the feeling of being in a relationship.

I am the filter

宮心計

First ancient series ive watched in a hell of a long time. It's suppose to be a Chinese remake of Jewel in the Palace.

So far.... it's the sexors.

nuff said 

random moments with besties

 [Jess] says:
*annie what class are u in??
annie` v^^v -class says:
*Psych
[Jess] says:
*ooo ic ic
annie` v^^v -class says:
*what class are you in
ツτнε sτερн says:
*sitting on my ass 101

Ideal wedding?

I know I never really said I wanted to get married, but I'm bored and trying to procrastinate on my homework. So what better way than to procrastinate! I think this entry may take more than one part but I'll see.

First things first, location. I want to get married in the summer, aside from the fact that I'm a late spring/early summer baby. I don't know why, but I love the idea of an outdoor wedding. You have the outdoors surroundings that you can play around with. Like I can get married on a cliff with the ocean being the background or like in a garden. I know, I just picked poor choice of words but I'm having some brain farts here.

But for an out door wedding the plus side is something like this:

If not then I'll have the boring, Church wedding, either that or a traditional Chinese Red wedding. With the Qi Pao and chances to change into many different dresses. I like the idea of being able to change the dress around.

I haven't found out what I want for an ideal dress yet. I kind of want to have this in my hair, Okay maybe not so big, but a little smaller, so it doesn't take over my whole face. That only applies if I plan on having an out door/summer wedding. If I'm having an indoor wedding I think I'll stick with a boring veil or not wear one at all.  I would also like a simple up-do or an half do, depending on my length of hair. If my tastes don't change in the future then I'm pretty sure I'd love to have an half up do.

Now as for dresses, I think I watch too much of Say Yes to the Dress, well when I had the chance, and when i was sitting on my ass getting my hair done. I love how there's consultants saying yes or no to the dresses, kind of like a personal shopper. I totally love the ladies on the show. They're all seem so easy going and have everything under control despite the fact that, they are on national t.v. and they must be under a lot of stress dealing with these crazy brides to be.

Well, as for an ideal dress I want something simple and nothing TOO poofy. I have a thing for poofy dresses, I have this weird fear that some one is gonna crawl under my dress and yeah, or like I'm gonna be stuck some where because the dress is TOO poofy and something got caught on the dress. I remember a lot of girls in my grad class all wore poofy dresses and they all got stepped on and ripped.

Now some ideal dresses i found,

Vera Wang.
I do like the design of the dress just iffy about the shoulder part.  I love how the bottom opens up, kind of like a tulip.

Vera Wang, again.

For the hell of it:

I know i said no to poofy dresses but I love the design on that.

and the shoes:

if not those ones, then I'll just wear white flats.

Find a person

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

mementos

So, I guess we all have our little somethings that we keep as a little  memory from ages. Either from your child hood, your teen years or something from your past relationships. Well, I was cleaning out my room and decided to throw some stuff out that I have in the shoe boxes in my closet. Man, do i have a lot of shoe boxes...it tells me how many pairs of shoes I've had in the past... well same thing as 2 full garbage bags of old clothes I'm going to donate.

Any who, back on topic, the things I found that I appeared to have kept through out high school were the letters that my pen pals or my friends that I've met online sent to me in the past. I also kept my happy notes from my grade 9 English Class (pictured above). Although most of them say the same thing, they still put a smile on my face. How? I simply don't know. Maybe because it's the fact that its a bit of assurance for me that my classmates doesn't think low of me? But then again they were forced to write something nice about me regardless of what they thought about me. Most of them said the same thing, "cute," "quiet," "cool"...etc. Don't know how that still puts a smile on my face.

Well, there's my collection of letters, I've collected over the few years. Well it's a combination of cards and letters combined together. Quite a bit, filled up one shoe box. I found one with a condom... yeah some one sent me a Christmas card with a condom inside.  The card dates back to 2006, no point in using that now, but it could make a good joke for a friend. I wished I was still in contact with these people who sent me the letters so I can just jokingly tell them, "oh hey i still have your letters, I know I'm weird but I don't know why i still have them."

So....do you have some sort of memento of things?

We can take a walk..

Are you waiting for your balls to drop?

I wished tahts how things were like for me right now. It's not that i don't feel loved or anything. Its just the fact that everyone seems to find something on my facebook or something and make a big deal out of it.For instance, when i was going out with one of my dick wad exes, his friends semed to made a big deal about some pictures on my facebook that I uploaded a long time ago. I don't remember what exactly it was but it had to do with something with kissing my exes.

Uhh...is there a problem there? Sure its nice to delete all the pics with your ex in it but if it was taken like years ago, I don't see a point in taking it down. The past is the past over and done with. Why the fuck are you digging it up in the first place? The only reason I can think of is just to stir the shit in the pot of shit that you have cooking up. All i gotta say is grow up. Are you doing this as an excuse to show that your balls really did drop? A cover up for your ball havent even dropped at your age? I shouldn't attack you any more over the net, its quite lame. Just like you...couldn't say it to my face.

Now, the second thing thats on my mind. Im pretty sure my friends are getting tired of me switching my facebook relationship status around every month or so. I dont want to burden them every time asking them to be my shoulder to cry on. I'd do the same for them, but I know how it feels to be dating all these losers all the time. Majority of the guys I've dated tend to be such nice sweet guys at first; then some how in the end they turn into some dick.

My best friend keeps telling me to find a decent guy. Decent? Sounds easy to do right? Wrong. I have to find some one that fits my best friend's standards. She has some pretty high standards but she's pretty easy going about things. Well, I kind of know who or what to base my next partner off of. My last ex, he was up there with my best friend. I have to agree, he was a really sweet guy- even though he was shallow at times, but everyone has to realize that no one's perfect. Man finding a "decent man" would be like finding the needle in the hay  stack- Impossible. I'm quite content if I don't find a decent guy...I wouldn't mind gtowing old with my dog. I mean unconditional love for the rest of his life! Why not? I just want to be loved like every living creature out there.

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10 things im thankful for?

Well, yesterday was Turkey Day in Canada, Columbus Day in the states. I was too busy writing my sociology research paper proposal. I want to shoot myself at the moment for putting it off til the last minute. Gah i hate procasination.

any ways the 10 things Im thankful for,

1. Having such great friends! I love you guys, platonicly. Your always there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or to lend an ear. I know I am a closed off person most of the time, Im glad you guys understand why I don't want to let things out. Its just causes less trouble for me in the future and less drama. Who wants drama in their life?
2. a drama free life. 
3. Adopted families, you guys are 10x better than my real family.
4. Of course Bat dog. 
5. Music, its something i need in my life. It's like clothing i feel naked with out it.
   
6. my Itouch, man this list is starting to sound more and more materialistic 
7. Pho? Pho Kyu? haha 

okay never mind I can only think of 7, I should really get back to my homrwork. its getting late and I want to sleep. 

A story about Tree,leaf, and the wind

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was thatI felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I wasalso afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled and said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want toknow what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her.There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, Istill sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & jokingwith me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later thatday, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure isbecause of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
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People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as a buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a new feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since heloves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know hislikes, his habits.But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect mea girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered ifI should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind
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Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Moral
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In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our
lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.

3 Cheers 2 True Love

Dear friend...

 K Y U . says:
 hm odd to be honest i dont know why anyone would leave you. from what I can tell how you are now is you are an amazing girlfriend
 i mean you work, go to school, and is cute and loveable lol

. K Y U . says:
 of course nie nie<3
 dont brind yourself down because you think you did something wrong ok? you're a perfectly fine girl
 and if i was living in canada, trust me lol you'd be the first girl id go after and id be persistent about it haha

 . K Y U . says:
 everytime i stop talking to you
 i always wonder "damn... if i was in canada i'd prolly be hella up on annie"
 hahaha nd i just think about how great of a girl you've become
 and it makes me smile to know that you're still safe and an amazing person

Dear Mister with the really long name aka Q,

Thank you for all the words of encouragement you gave me over the period of time. I don't know if you know how much they mean to me coming from you. I wished you can see my reaction when I read your kind words. I do wish you were in Canada too. I wouldn't mind dating you, well have a real relationship instead of that long distance thing we had long time ago. Thank you so much for being around when my mother was fighting for her life against cancer, thank you again for being there and listening to me cry over the phone. I kind of feel bad about the things I've said and done in the past, I really do. I thought you would of never stuck around... i thought you'd be like every other guy I've liked and dated. They never really stuck around as friends- even if they wanted to remain as friends.

Most of the times when you talk to me, I usually brush off all the compliments and the jokes you make about us being togther. I never thought you were being serious, after all you do have a girlfriend or probably a long line of girls waiting to date you. Sometimes I feel down when you tell me about the problems you have with your girlfriends. I don't understand why any one would act that way to you. I still don't know why you went out with Jane! I know its been 3-4 years and I still remember. I still remember the day you discovered "our song," then we later found out the person sings it lives in your area. I still remember about how our talks about if we got married you'd take my last name, so your intials will spell PAW instead of PAN. Ahh, such fond memories I have of us. 

You never fail to make me laugh, that trait feels like, at least to me, its a natural thing. It comes to you naturally and so effortlessly. You don't seem to get offended when i say somethings to you when I'm mad. You just laugh it off and treat it as if its nothing. You know your a dork, you call me long distance for no reason, well maybe except the times when you woke up to call me and tell me about your strange dreams about us hanging out. I hope your strange dreams do come true. I want to meet you in person and see if your the same awesome person I exchange texts with over msn and text messages. Maybe after spending a day with me, well probably less then a day you'd see why I get dumped or discover something new or maybe I learn something new about you...like how much of an ass hole you are. I kid. If i went down to modesto to meet you, I'd probably spend more time with your dog. I dont want to make your girlfriend jealous or make her feel neglected. I don't want you to break up with her just because I'm around. I know I sound very self -centered, but I don't know what you'd do. When we talk, you never mention her, its like she doesnt exist at all and I feel like if I'm your girlfriend.

well, like you said I shouldn't bring myself down. So I'll try not to in the future. Thanks again for everything you do.

Sephora 3rd opening!

Yup, so during the summer 2 Sephoras had opened. One in Coquitlam center and one in Pacific Center. I think they originally announced 3 locations? The third one was still being built and they had to find a location for it. Which they did in the end.So I went in just to check things out. I didn't expect to spend so much there. I never really spend that much money on make up in general.

So i guess at every opening they give out free stuff. I think Pacific and Coquitlam center were giving out umbrellas, to the beauty insiders. I am a BI, but I never really got a card....or any emails regarding free stuff. I hope that changes soon! Or Imma cry! lol well i think im just gonna make another email and maybe or hopefully i get something from there.

Now, my haul for the day,

• Sephora colourful pallette in taupe model 14
• Benefit Bad Girl Lash mascara 
• Kat Von D Tattoo Ink eye liner in Trooper
• Sephora Pro eyeshadow brush
• Sephora Brand falsies
  

I'll do a review for everything later.

Daniel D - The truth

This is probably my ultimate all time favorite song. It makes me think about things...

Dedication.

Today, when I went to go pick up my dog from my friend's place. I asked her the usual question, like "how was the walk?" "Did you see any one today,"...etc. She gave me the usual answer, and another story with it.

She told me about this gentlemen, whom I think I've met only once, he had a jack russel terrier (boy) and I forgot what was the other dog (it was a female). So today, my friend ran into him, she asked what happened to his girl. His response was, "one day, she couldn't get up. Her spine had collapsed on her, and I had to put her down. Your in the same position too with your older one too right?" So she responded, Yes, she is. She knew how it felt to have such an old dog and knew that one day, she would get out of bed. Before parting ways, the final question  she asked him was, "are you going to get another dog?" I wasn't there to see his face but I probably know how he would of felt. He just simply said,

"No, my wife would leave me if I got another dog,"

The moment my friend told me that line, instantly I knew the pain he felt. Although I'm not married, I still knew the pain. You had to pick something that you put so much time and effort into, or some one that you want to spend the rest of your life with. I was somewhat given the same choice to think about. Honestly if i could, I would want the both of them.  I love him a lot and really willing to work things out with him, but i guess i made some wrong moves that made him think otherwise. I should really stop hoping that he'll call me, if he felt the same he's probably hoping I message or call him. I dont want to make things worse, so im just going to leave things the way they are until one of us caves in.

I really hate it when people ask you to give something up, especially when you put so much time and dedication into it...

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I'm feeling exactly the same right now.

Truck Driver

A trucker who has been out on the road for two weeks stops at a brothel outside Atlanta.

He walks straight up to the Madam, drops down $5000 and says: "I want your ugliest woman and a grilled cheese sandwich!"

The Madam is astonished. "But sir, for that kind of money you could have five of my finest ladies and a four-course meal."

The trucker replies:
"Listen darlin', I'm not horny - I'm homesick."

Families...

Ever since my boyfriend and I got back together, we would spend 1 weekend together. It usually ends up being a Saturday, otherwise Sunday if i am working on Saturday. I love spending time with him, even if it means we're lying in bed falling asleep in each other's embrace or just going to one of his family dinners. I'm always content with what ever we do. I love being close with him, something about his personality or something about him in general makes me feel safe. Well, if you know us in person; it appears that I wear the pants in the relationship. I do, but we treat each other as equal. There isn't a whipped person in the relationship.

Now, ever since we started dating...we never really went out much. Vancouver is kind of a boring city and there isn't  much to do in the first place. Just the usual go out to movies and dinner thing, or just pretend to be a tourist for a day. To be honest, it gets really boring pretty quick too. So instead og sitting on our asses in his car, asking ourselves - where do you want to go today? or what do you want to do? We just go to his place and have dinner there. I met his family and I seemed to be adopted into his family fairly quckly. Usually, with my past boyfriends it took a while for me to warm up to their parents. I warmed up to his parents fairly quick. It just came to be a surprise to me. Well the biggest one was when his grandma came up to me and gave me a hug. I never really got that from any one's grandparent.

So today, iI sepnt the rest of the after noon with my slinky. We went to his aunt's place for dinner,she was throwing a birthday dinner for her oldest son's (belated) birthday. Today,I finally met one of his cousin that he always talks about. Like her mother and the rest of his family she was a good sense of humor and was kind of enough to lend me her text book. Later in the evening when we were all lounging around in their basement wtaching this lame show, I think it was called "Flash Point"? His sister's boyfriend made a comment about how close and accepting their family was.

I actually agree, my family is very distant and we don't really talk much. I feel I don't have a real family. I feel like this house is one of those boarding houses. My dad is the strict head master. He called me, before 11 to see where the hell i was. I mean normally I walk in the door right smack at 11. He treats my older brotherand I as if we were 12. He seems to exaggerate things, which pisses us all off.  I get no freedom, and Im 20 years old. I actually want to be treated as an adult and not some kind of child. My family doesnt have this fancy dinner, where we invite all our friends and family over and have a nice feast. We either go out with just our family invite a few old hags of our family or just stay home and have steak.

On the other hand, like I mentioned earlier, I was instantly accepted into the family fairly quick. His grandparents seem to love me! His grandma told me to go over to her house and visit her more often! I guess she missed seeing me pop my head in and say "Hi," when ever I'm over. His grandmother's so silly. I wished I had a grandmother just like her... Oh and when i took a picture with his grandparents, his dad was like "is she the one, now?"

my reponse, "its his choice." I do hope I am the one for him. I really love him....and i don't want him to leave me again...

TGIF!

Thank God It's Friday! I don't know how well i can stand the week any longer. After tonight's shift I'm free to have fun for a bit before i have to settle down and start doing some homework. In a way, its kind of like rape...Im pretty sure homework loves being slammed down on the desk and likes it hard...yes Im going to stop going off topic and into any more sexual content on this blog. ahaha...

So, today was also pay day. I also got a card from Bootlegger telling me its their card holder private sale...etc. So instead of the usual 10% off i got 25% off. Yaaay...yeah still not a lot but it's still something. Better than the shoddy 10%. I probably use the card most on accessories. That reminds me i have to get some more...if not I'm going to incorporate it into my '10 new years resolution. Hopefully I can go through with it this year, last year I barely made an attempt at it. I think loosing weight is on it... that's the only thing I had success with. Man my spelling is starting to suck. I dont think spell check is even on this.. Enough going off topic! At Bootlegger, I bought a new top, a flannel top and a pair of jeans. Aereopoastle also had a sale going on...well it seems like a lot of stores are having sales. I bought 2 camis (BOGO Free) since i was in deseperate need of those. The ones  I have are starting to get worn out and its a bit tooo tight for me sometimes.

I shall have pictures up later, but for now I must get some nap time. I am still sick and i need to get some rest. I need some inspiration on how to pull off the flanel top. On the plus side of things I got my Nikon Camera back! I can start taking pictures of my purchases again and other events! YAY

Falsies and T.V Series

Man, I'm tired from school. I think im all caught up with all my readings so I'm gonna relax this whole week. I'll pick up the slack for it over the weekend or on the days I'm not seeing my slinky...but then again I have abunch of exams coming up and I gotta cram my ass off for those. The weirdest things always seems to happen to me during the morning. The first one would probably be, while i was walking to the bus stop going to school, some guy in an Audi A4 waved at me. It too me a while to realize who he was...he was one of the guys that lives down the street from me. He tends to joke around about Ollie being his dog. The next one was oneo f my brother's old elementary friends. I was weirded out by the fact he knew who i was... I mean its been years since ive seen him, also Im a blonde now (well not really but i act like a blonde more often now).

Any ways, I was just watching 'Gossip Girl,' the first season isn't so bad, well I only watched one disc of the first season, but yeah It's similar to the books I read as a pre-teen. I hardly remember jack shit from the book though...haha typical. I rented 3 t.v. series to watch last week and Im slowly getting hooked on them. The only I'm enjoying the msot so far, has to be 'Dexter'(starring the Gay brother from 'Six Feet Under'. My co-workers say that "Mad Men" is going to completely change my mind after watching the first few episodes. I already hate the theme song they have going on for 'Mad Men,' it's so repetitive. Any ways so far, the first ep of Mad men seem to be about cigerette advertisements and sex. Wow. I wonder what's so good about this show I guess I gotta keep watching it to find out.

Now on to the topic of False lashes. Lately Ive been finding that just mascara alone, doesn't seem to make my lashes even noticeable. Even the ones that promises to do so. I have the Too Face Lash Injection...I believe it said it'll give you thicker lashes? I dont even notice any difference with my lashes. Nothing at all. So i went out and bought a pair of false lashes from Ardelle, i started with the starter set. Which is the Demi lashes.

Any ways i got bored and tried to put them on, they look a little fuggggly because it was my first attempt and i might have not done it right..

now pictures ^^

and dont mind the pose, I only had my laptop's webcam x__x'

bare lashes:

with one on:

Both:

pose fail =_= 

Update! Finally~

Well, I finally came back to blogger. I don't know why... I just lost the feel for wordpress. Most likely; because I feel that when ever I post a picture, depending on what ever layout I am using, the image gets cut off instead of being re sized.

Any ways, It's been a year since I've actually used blogger. I've been putting things more on Tumblr just because its just random stuff I used to put on my blog. Now i use something completely different. Now I just want to blog things and let things out. So I kind of want to use this for many reasons. Hopefully I'll make some use of this

Over the past years I haven't done much. Just flunked out of my old school, giving up the U Pass . So, now I have to spend 73 bucks a month on a bus pass to get to school. It adds up after awhile. But on the plus side I get medical and dental coverage at my new school . It's a plus for me because I don't have a medical extended plan...or else I'd be paying for medical out of my own ass. I don't have the money for that, and my work place doesn't have any great benefits.

Summer had a few relationships here and there, met some guys still talk to some others not so much. I guess I wasn't much of their type. Oh well, I didn't feel a connection between them any ways. Now I'm dating, what I consider, to be the sweetest guy ever. He's a total sweet heart... he's so silly and makes fun of things. He makes the silliest analogies even though they do throw me off and confuse me. Despite all his food allergies he makes it up me, like now that I'm back in school. He encourages me to read and as an award I think he offered to get me my favorite chocolate...REESE'S PEANUT BUTTER CUPS! Hell Ya! Since he's allergic to nuts I can't share it with him so i have to eat it on one of the days I don't see him.

Any ways i should get back to homework and update some more later.