Dedication.

Today, when I went to go pick up my dog from my friend's place. I asked her the usual question, like "how was the walk?" "Did you see any one today,"...etc. She gave me the usual answer, and another story with it.

She told me about this gentlemen, whom I think I've met only once, he had a jack russel terrier (boy) and I forgot what was the other dog (it was a female). So today, my friend ran into him, she asked what happened to his girl. His response was, "one day, she couldn't get up. Her spine had collapsed on her, and I had to put her down. Your in the same position too with your older one too right?" So she responded, Yes, she is. She knew how it felt to have such an old dog and knew that one day, she would get out of bed. Before parting ways, the final question  she asked him was, "are you going to get another dog?" I wasn't there to see his face but I probably know how he would of felt. He just simply said,

"No, my wife would leave me if I got another dog,"

The moment my friend told me that line, instantly I knew the pain he felt. Although I'm not married, I still knew the pain. You had to pick something that you put so much time and effort into, or some one that you want to spend the rest of your life with. I was somewhat given the same choice to think about. Honestly if i could, I would want the both of them.  I love him a lot and really willing to work things out with him, but i guess i made some wrong moves that made him think otherwise. I should really stop hoping that he'll call me, if he felt the same he's probably hoping I message or call him. I dont want to make things worse, so im just going to leave things the way they are until one of us caves in.

I really hate it when people ask you to give something up, especially when you put so much time and dedication into it...